Third strike – still out

by Richard Perkins

It’s official. I have once again snatched defeat from the jaws of victory. It’s been just over a week since my second round interview with a local geothermal technology company. Today I contacted the recruiter for an update, only to find that the company has decided to go with another candidate.

What was the deciding factor this time? Availability. I have no one to blame but myself really. I have some short trips planned in May and June, and a family visit scheduled for July. Before I started interviewing for this position, I had also made a commitment (to myself) to write another novel in July.

I’ve probably said it before: I am not a fast writer. When I’m working, I target 1500-2000 words per day, which takes me about 3-4 hours of uninterrupted writing time. It’s difficult to maintain a pace like that while working a full time job. It would have been easiest for me to start the new engineering position in August, but I did offer to start immediately as long as I could cut back on office hours in July. After reviewing their proposed project schedule and near term milestones, I knew that I could achieve all of their objectives working half days in July and full time there-after. I felt confident about that then and I still do now.

Sadly, they didn’t bite. The recruiter asked on two separate occasions whether my previous commitments were avoidable. But if they were avoidable they wouldn’t be commitments, now would they? And would you really want a program manager who reneged on previous commitments for the sake of expediency?

I think that a commitment you make to yourself is every bit as important as one you make to someone else. I’ve spent the last three years forcing myself to learn that delicate balancing act. It was one of the many reasons I left the semi-conductor industry in the first place. I was in very real danger of losing myself completely in the job. I needed to get out before I burned out.

Well… I’m still out. And this is the third renewable energy job that I have gotten close enough to taste, only to have the oasis turn into a mirage before my first sip. Sometimes you can’t win for losing… :-(

2 Responses to “Third strike – still out”

  1. I do admire your commitment to yourself though. I don’t know many people who wouldn’t cancel the other “commitments” (and then they wouldn’t be commitments, just plans).

  2. Thanks Sixmats. I’m still kicking myself a little for losing this one. But one lives and learns (at least in theory… I’m still working on that last part).